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So when you said the thing about Responder training anyone, did you really mean it?

anyone who feels like they could actually complete the training and are willing to make a commitment to do so, yeah.

caught the bug?

Maybe. I mean, unless having a good personality is a prerequisite.

thats hilarious [...] wait youre srsly concerned about that? have you met half of us? i think youll be fine.

Yeah, I'm not really likeable and most of you are??

[...] That's why I asked you and then chickened out.

~~what is with you guys being badasses in your own various ways, yet all of you are the exact same insecure lil dude underneath it all? plz help me understand!!!!!~~ you seem plenty likeable to me?

also if you think that about us, it just means we play the role really well instead of showing what neurotics and fuckups we really are. again, trust that youre not some outlier here

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When I'm shooting ferals in the head, maybe? But that's about it.

Well, you had me fooled. As far as I'm concerned, you're like, the golden gods of the Quad.

you're delusional, but spose that just means you'll fit in perfectly fine

awww, my ego thanks you. we perform well under pressure, what can I say

what made you change your mind, if you dont mind me asking?

Is there anyone who isn't flirting with delusion these days just to stay alive?

You do. Maybe you can teach me.

[...] It's stupid.

now you're asking the right questions! (the answer is no, so much no)

from what ive gathered you already seem to have the levelheadedness needed, so we'll get you the knowledge to back things up and youll be your own golden god

try me

We're all doing Great.

All right, thank you. I'm a quick learner, I can follow instructions, I can lift heavy shit, and I know basic first aid, so I hope that's enough as a baseline.

[...]

'Cause I keep thinking about fucking off into the sunset, but maybe if I felt like I was doing something valuable or worthwhile, I would... want to do that less.

the capitalization is Key

honestly that's more than some people I've seen succeed start off with, so you're ahead of that pack. it wouldn't be me that would make the final call and arrange all the shit, but I can bring this up to mgmt and let them know you're interested.

[...] thats not stupid at all. and im not just saying that. if you cant do it for you, at least help someone on your way out; makes sense to me

So Great!!!

Cool, thank you. If they say no, that's also fine. No worries. I haven't run it by anyone here, either. Figured I would see if it was even an option before I bothered.

Figured you guys could maybe use some help, too. I'm a warm body, got nobody to hold me back from doing dangerous shit, and I already have a horse the knows the drill.

Fan-Fucking-Tastic!!

i doubt they will, but might be a decent idea to at least cue maggie into as perhaps she'll start showing you a few things she's learned until we can get everything "official"

I will not lie to you that we're a skeleton crew that tries to pretend we're not, so you're not wrong. [...] and I'm no therapist, but I'm here if you ever need to throw words at someone rather than simply keep thinking them over and over.

~~Unless Maggie also ha~~ Sure, I can try that.

It's all right, I deal with it all by keeping busy. It'd just be nice to feel like I'm working toward something rather than just treading water. But thanks.