there isn't a ranking. beau likes to show her thanks in 'smooches' as she calls it, but flitting around with multiple people seems like a lot of mental energy I don't have. [...] also what makes you think you'd immediately be at the bottom of some list, if one did exist?
I assumed you were, you know, enjoying time with other people, too. Seeing as you are recently divorced, are mingling with a social group broader than Prescott, and are interested in casual engagements. And have a fun personality while being very good-looking. And everyone likes you. […] I just thought surely it could not only be me. Seeing that I am me.
nope. aside from a weird rebound fling with one of nat's bartenders and that night of spin the bottle at whitney, [...] you're the only person ive flirted or fucked around with to any degree.
“Discount”? Court, I live in reality. And this is beside the point.
I thought you were seeing other people but you are not. Alright. I understand the geometry of this situation a little better.
Maybe you talking to Arlo will help, maybe it won’t. I don’t want to get in the way of your important relationships. […] Your well-being is important to me.
I have more to say but now it is your turn to share a thought about our situation.
im not so sure it really is besides the point, but im not one to nag once i've said my bit most of the time
i am not, just apparently have that vibe~ what am i just part of some harem you have now?
here is to hoping it will, but suppose only time will tell. you're not, and the same can be said right back on both points.
I really like where we are, as far as things being casual, while still being able to learn more about each other without any expectations that tend to come along with labeling shit. i still dont think im ready for a real relationship again and honestly might never be, but whatever we've got going on is [...] nice. [...] I like hanging out with you, John, and you're fun to make out with, so id be down to continue doing both if you are?
You were the first person I kissed since October 2011. The other person I have kissed since then is Jem. […] Hah.
[…] […] […]
Candidly, I am still confused why someone as engaging (in so many senses of the word) as you would continue to willingly interact with me. […] Sometimes I am afraid that, if I had not […] aggressively advertised myself, we never would have spoken to each other. What could I have done to induce you to talk to me, except for making out? I worry too that, outside of availability, I have nothing to offer you that you could not get easily and of better quality from someone else. I mean conversation, advice, emotional comfort and support.
[…]
I suppose what I am trying to say is, can this not be a real relationship anyway? If we could label ourselves just one thing, could we label ourselves as friends? Because I consider you a true friend to me, Court. […] When I was bitten, I felt as though I stopped existing outside of the bite ward to everyone but you. Sometimes I feel like I am dead while everyone else is alive, I can’t […] […] Your care meant a lot. And so I would like to be a true friend to you.
anything in particular happen then? or simply pre-apocalypse bs? when the hell did that happen??
[...]
ive thought about the same and come to a similar conclusion, but is that necessarily a bad thing? people meet under much weirder circumstances, and u could say that's simply the first time one of us showed some part of ourselves rarely seen? i dont know, but I do know the option wehre we just ignore each other 4 whatever reason seems really shitty and id rather avoid that. oh and i dont see this monster or half-person you seem worried im going to take notice of; we're all fucking weirdos to have made it this far
i can do friends. [...] i know how to be a decent friend, at least id like to think so. maybe it's just rare to make any sort of connection with anyone new in the world we now find ourselves, but i do care about you john. you really don't need to question it
[...][...] and id like it known I fought the urge to turn at least 2/3rds of that into simply a joke, so youre welcome
Does having a workplace accident count as pre-apocalypse BS? Ha ha. And it was during the drunk Jenga game at your surprise party. I don't believe he enjoyed it much, my apologies. Between that and my conversation with Arlo, I don't think I added much to your party. Still, I remain grateful to have been invited.
No, I'm glad we are not avoiding or ignoring each other. Or permanently stuck in cold cordiality. [...] I suppose if my company or knowing me generally becomes burdensome, please tell me. [...] I don't know how to be the kind of person that people hold on to. I am still learning. I think you are an incredible friend. Though you are indeed a fucking weirdo. C]:^)
ah, it starts to line up. i miss all of the fun. 'obviously his loss' is the way it needs to be framed. and please dont apologize as im glad you were among those i got to celebrate with, even if I didnt end up spending that much time with you. which btw were the cards a throw back??
i ask the same thing because know i can overstep boundaries without meaning to or can be a lot at times, so deal. we can try to figure out how to be Normal People together? bc fuck knows im still trying to work that out. thanks john. i take pride in both of these facts. :3
[...][...] if im that bad of a kisser you could just say so without having to come up with all this.
Ah, I wouldn’t say “his loss.” But yes, the cards refer to a previous conversation. I did warn you I am excellent at cards.
I understand. As your friend I will always tell you when I think you are acting inadvisably. Although my metric for normalcy will not always be correct.
Hah. You are not a bad kisser. Although if you were, it would be awkward to tell you. […] I don’t even know how I would do it. Fake my death, perhaps. Haha. […] But perhaps.
why not? thought so, but had to be certain; whats your game of choice?
dont be too offended if I still act inadvisably from time to time, as ive got to get my kicks somehow
figured you might have said something so far, but always good to have that in 'writing'. [...] please dont fake your death and know id much rather hear something like I suck at kissing or whatever embarrassing equivalent, though also, like, it would be kinda cool to fake your own death in this society????
He seems like the type of man who is never wanting for an opportunity to kiss. […] Anyway. Have you ever played Big Two?
I promise I will primarily advise. I cannot stop you. Possibly I will not want to stop you.
You are so funny, Court. “In writing?” Even if I said that, who would believe me? If I said you were bad kisser I think I would have to fake my own death. Otherwise I would be run out of the county.
ive seen the man flirt while impaled, so okay fair ill give you that. never even heard of it. how's it go?
if I want someone to talk me out of something, trust that I'll ask. but how else does one get to do dumb and/or dangerous shit, aha?
funny... avoidant... same thing yanno. ""in text"" doesn't have the same zhuzh. this is true, id like to think the like three other people still alive that know this to be patently false would rally in my honor.
I am not surprised to learn that about Jem. For Big Two, you split the deck between all players, and everyone tries to get rid of their cards in turns. […] We can just play it, it’s easier if I show you.
Oh, I don’t know. For some people, dumb and dangerous things happen to them regardless.
yep, big man on campus himself. im much more of a hands-on than theoretical learner, so agreed we should just play some time.
maybe it's just part of the human experience as a whole, people just get varying degrees of dumb and difficult thrown at them?
[...] okay. yeah. i'm just gonna stay away from making any sort of jokes about people fighting over me or defending my honor as this turns [...] awkward real quick. my bad
Some more than others. Although survival rate has something to do with it. We all lived past the initial outbreak, statistically we will get more dumb and dangerous things on our lap. Haha.
I wouldn’t find it awkward if you made a joke like that. It would be a little funny, especially because Arlo does not seem like the type to pick a fight over such an issue at all. Irony. But if I was a Red Talon operative being rude about the Prescott responders at the Lobby…
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what the fuck are you talking about?
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why do you discount yourself so easily?
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I thought you were seeing other people but you are not. Alright. I understand the geometry of this situation a little better.
Maybe you talking to Arlo will help, maybe it won’t. I don’t want to get in the way of your important relationships. […] Your well-being is important to me.
I have more to say but now it is your turn to share a thought about our situation.
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most of the timei am not, just apparently have that vibe~ what am i just part of some harem you have now?
here is to hoping it will, but suppose only time will tell. you're not, and the same can be said right back on both points.
I really like where we are, as far as things being casual, while still being able to learn more about each other without any expectations that tend to come along with labeling shit. i still dont think im ready for a real relationship again and honestly might never be, but whatever we've got going on is [...] nice. [...] I like hanging out with you, John, and you're fun to make out with, so id be down to continue doing both if you are?
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[…] […] […]
Candidly, I am still confused why someone as engaging (in so many senses of the word) as you would continue to willingly interact with me. […] Sometimes I am afraid that, if I had not […] aggressively advertised myself, we never would have spoken to each other. What could I have done to induce you to talk to me, except for making out? I worry too that, outside of availability, I have nothing to offer you that you could not get easily and of better quality from someone else. I mean conversation, advice, emotional comfort and support.
[…]
I suppose what I am trying to say is, can this not be a real relationship anyway? If we could label ourselves just one thing, could we label ourselves as friends? Because I consider you a true friend to me, Court. […] When I was bitten, I felt as though I stopped existing outside of the bite ward to everyone but you.
Sometimes I feel like I am dead while everyone else is alive, I can’t[…] […] Your care meant a lot. And so I would like to be a true friend to you.DM, 11/21
[...]
ive thought about the same and come to a similar conclusion, but is that necessarily a bad thing? people meet under much weirder circumstances, and u could say that's simply the first time one of us showed some part of ourselves rarely seen? i dont know, but I do know the option wehre we just ignore each other 4 whatever reason seems really shitty and id rather avoid that. oh and i dont see this monster or half-person you seem worried im going to take notice of; we're all fucking weirdos to have made it this far
i can do friends. [...] i know how to be a decent friend, at least id like to think so. maybe it's just rare to make any sort of connection with anyone new in the world we now find ourselves, but i do care about you john. you really don't need to question it
[...] [...] and id like it known I fought the urge to turn at least 2/3rds of that into simply a joke, so youre welcome
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No, I'm glad we are not avoiding or ignoring each other. Or permanently stuck in cold cordiality. [...] I suppose if my company or knowing me generally becomes burdensome, please tell me. [...] I don't know how to be the kind of person that people hold on to. I am still learning. I think you are an incredible friend. Though you are indeed a fucking weirdo. C]:^)
What was your joke?
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i ask the same thing because know i can overstep boundaries without meaning to or can be a lot at times, so deal. we can try to figure out how to be Normal People together? bc fuck knows im still trying to work that out. thanks john. i take pride in both of these facts. :3
[...] [...] if im that bad of a kisser you could just say so without having to come up with all this.
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I understand. As your friend I will always tell you when I think you are acting inadvisably. Although my metric for normalcy will not always be correct.
Hah. You are not a bad kisser. Although if you were, it would be awkward to tell you. […] I don’t even know how I would do it. Fake my death, perhaps. Haha. […] But perhaps.
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dont be too offended if I still act inadvisably from time to time, as ive got to get my kicks somehow
figured you might have said something so far, but always good to have that in 'writing'. [...] please dont fake your death and know id much rather hear something like I suck at kissing or whatever embarrassing equivalent, though also, like, it would be kinda cool to fake your own death in this society????
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I promise I will primarily advise. I cannot stop you. Possibly I will not want to stop you.
You are so funny, Court. “In writing?” Even if I said that, who would believe me? If I said you were bad kisser I think I would have to fake my own death. Otherwise I would be run out of the county.
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if I want someone to talk me out of something, trust that I'll ask. but how else does one get to do dumb and/or dangerous shit, aha?
funny... avoidant... same thing yanno. ""in text"" doesn't have the same zhuzh. this is true, id like to think the like three other people still alive that know this to be patently false would rally in my honor.
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Oh, I don’t know. For some people, dumb and dangerous things happen to them regardless.
Such as Arlo.
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maybe it's just part of the human experience as a whole, people just get varying degrees of dumb and difficult thrown at them?
[...] okay. yeah. i'm just gonna stay away from making any sort of jokes about people fighting over me or defending my honor as this turns [...] awkward real quick. my bad
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I wouldn’t find it awkward if you made a joke like that. It would be a little funny, especially because Arlo does not seem like the type to pick a fight over such an issue at all. Irony. But if I was a Red Talon operative being rude about the Prescott responders at the Lobby…