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maybe you're just in a funk [...] which would honestly be utterly understandable considering [...] i left. which isnt to say im so up my own ass as 2 think the world revolves around me, i just... really don't know what im trying 2 say other than being broken up with sucks and i wish ~~i could take it back sometimes simply because it broke you that much more~~ i had something to say that didn't sound patronizing. im sorry

even if you feel lonely, promise ur not alone

well the funk got old fast. and you don't know what you're trying to say and idek what i'm trying to ask for, it ain't like this is an easy fix ~~i just think about it all the time cause i can't~~

~~it still feels~~ i know that ~~but it makes me feel farther a~~

this's what i meant by not bday talk [...] it SHOULD revolve around you. it's your bday. i shouldn't be makin you feel bad cause of shit you can't fix but i can't talk to you without talking about [...] everything. you need somebody with the right vibe to ring you in for a better year ~~like~~

Edited 2024-11-19 13:34 (UTC)

sounds like we're knocking shit out of the ballpark left and right here ~~who knew we sucked at problem solving together...~~

you rang in a better year for me already, so stop that. if i didnt want 2 have this conversation id just ignore you. its probably something that needs to be acknowledged more [...] for both of our sakes. im not saying boundaries have been overstepped or new ones need to be created, just as soon as I left we kind of tried to ignore it.

how tf havent we come across a single therapist or counselor in the apocalypse to throw this shit at??

it was easier to ignore. for a while. ~~i thought maybe you'd wanna come b~~ but doing it now ain't good cause i feel like i'm caught in a stupid cycle where nothing's gonna get better

they're probably around but they just lied cause otherwise they'd never get a break

Edited 2024-11-19 17:24 (UTC)

you know i left because i had to put on my own air mask first for once, not as some punishment for something you did or didn't do, right?

[...] shittiest impromptu therapist: mara or roswell would be my guess

Edited 2024-11-19 21:43 (UTC)

it felt like you put yours on and then you left the plane. while i was still trying to remember the instructions but there weren't nobody around to help me figure it out. [...] and i know you ain't responsible for all my emotional [...] regulation [...] stuff but [...] i thought since we made it through everything else we'd make it through that
and then i was the only person who couldn't cope and i didn't think i had anybody left to ask, cause i know i was [...] real hard to deal with for a while and you needed a break and space. ~~i didn't think i deserv~~

so that's how i felt. [...] been feeling.

mara. roswell just needs therapy.

Edited 2024-11-19 22:08 (UTC)