I [...] don't know. I think that's what I'm scared of the most, that I wouldn't like who I am without being able to hide things. what if I really am too loud or too much?
Well, if you really are too loud I would not recommend getting in touch with your true self until after the horde has been dealt with. (Joke.) [...] I think the great trial in many people's lives is coming to terms with who they are. Whether that is learning to like themselves or learning to manage.
Selfishly, I am enjoying this conversation. All I have to do is read what you say and learn a bit more about you. Most of the time I feel some level of nervousness about determining the right thing to say, but there are no "right" things, now.
ha HA :P where do you see yourself on that range? I'd like to be among those that can say they truly like themselves, though suppose only time will tell.
just wait until I turn it around on you and start asking probing questions. [...] it is nice to be able to just throw this stuff out there, I'll admit. suppose I should be thanking you for the opportunity or figuring out some way to repay you.
Hm. Flattery will get you nowhere, Court. I do not think we are done talking about you but we can take a break for now. Next: your childhood.
I should rest more than I do. But you could say the same about anyone in the Quad. I like the way you wrapped it, though. The bandage stays in place while I work, and it maintains a nice pressure on the scabs. Oh yes, they've scabbed over now.
I'm allowed to make observations as I see fit. such as: why are you doing this when you don't owe me anything? that's a question, but same thing
you should, but I agree with your statement we're all overworked and overly tired. let me know if it gets dirty or wet and I can re-wrap it for you again. [...] well, when there's the chance.
I enjoy talking to you. I enjoy learning about you. [...] To be frank, Court, I think I do owe you, for permitting me to be your friend. This is a privilege I do not take lightly. [...] But I understand these are not very fun things for me to say.
Maggie can also re-wrap it for now. Although she will not be pleased.
I enjoy talking to you too, John. it's nice to have conversations that don't just revolve around zeds or the crisis of the week. [...] and you keep pointing out how not very fun you view yourself, maybe that's something to be looked into there in the vein of uncovering insecurities.
that she has to doctor to people? is that not her job as far as Lundegaard goes?
She doesn't like to be around other people, so it would not be nice for her to stay at the bed and breakfast while we rebuild her house. We also want to keep it available for guests. Maggie had intended on camping out on the grounds, but the ground was very muddy after the storm, and it would have been cold and uncomfortable to camp long-term. Needless, too, especially when we have so many houses. And I can stay with my sister who I would like to be closer to . Why wouldn't I offer Maggie my house?
I have no plans to trick or manipulate. I honestly don't have the energy for it, but can understand your hesitance still, as it's hard to ignore past experiences.
This is not to say I expect other people to do things for me, so I am kind to them. There are just different sets of rules that I have observed. […] And I like making people happy. If I can. It’s surprisingly difficult, especially nowadays.
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that wasn't supposed to be a joke, but also it works
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what else do you want to know?
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Also, I have something of a selfish confession to make.
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[...] [...] oh?
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Selfishly, I am enjoying this conversation. All I have to do is read what you say and learn a bit more about you. Most of the time I feel some level of nervousness about determining the right thing to say, but there are no "right" things, now.
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just wait until I turn it around on you and start asking probing questions. [...] it is nice to be able to just throw this stuff out there, I'll admit. suppose I should be thanking you for the opportunity or figuring out some way to repay you.
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I hate being myself.I manage. And I think you will like yourself. You are a likable person, manufactured persona notwithstanding.Don't thank me. It feels good to have this conversation with you. Like I am being useful to you.
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[...] what are friends for, after all?
I keep meaning to ask how your shoulder is doing.
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I should rest more than I do. But you could say the same about anyone in the Quad. I like the way you wrapped it, though. The bandage stays in place while I work, and it maintains a nice pressure on the scabs. Oh yes, they've scabbed over now.
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you should, but I agree with your statement we're all overworked and overly tired. let me know if it gets dirty or wet and I can re-wrap it for you again. [...] well, when there's the chance.
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Maggie can also re-wrap it for now. Although she will not be pleased.
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that she has to doctor to people? is that not her job as far as Lundegaard goes?
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She will not be pleased to have to doctor me. I suspect she takes great pride in providing medical aid to our community.
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perhaps it's none of my business, but it seems like she's nothing but a thorn in your side and yet you still have given up house for her. why?
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She doesn't like to be around other people, so it would not be nice for her to stay at the bed and breakfast while we rebuild her house. We also want to keep it available for guests. Maggie had intended on camping out on the grounds, but the ground was very muddy after the storm, and it would have been cold and uncomfortable to camp long-term. Needless, too, especially when we have so many houses. And I can stay with my sister
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not many people would go out of their way, to that degree, for others, especially not at the sake of putting themselves out. it says a lot about you.
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[...] is that somehow problematic for you?
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This is not to say I expect other people to do things for me, so I am kind to them. There are just different sets of rules that I have observed. […] And I like making people happy. If I can. It’s surprisingly difficult, especially nowadays.
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people need more happiness in general, so I hope you don't give up the pursuit any time soon
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